» Saturday, August 8, 2009 / -9:54 AM

Just came back from watching The Proposal with my brother and his girl.

The movie was hilarious and touching at parts. Sandra Bullock is supposed to be the mean Margeret Tate who is an editor. And Andrew Paxlov however, is a rich guy, working as Margeret's assistant. Everyone hates Margeret. She was about to be deported back to Canada because her visa expired. So, she blackmailed Andrew to marry her so that she can stay in America to keep her job. Slowly, she opened up to Andrew and eventually they fell in love with each other.

However, while we were getting some popcorns and drinks at the refreshment stand, we bumped into Ivan's friend. He asked Ivan to help him buy some food as the queues are long. I was standing behind Ivan, quite close to him, actually. His friend was standing beside him and his girl was at the other side.

His friend started to look at me all funny-like and muttered something to Ivan which looked like he was saying "Who the hell is that? Do you know her? Why the hell is she standing soooo close to you?" and Ivan simply replied "Oh, that's my sister."

I know, I am not the most fashionable, the talkative, the prettiest, the friendliest, the funniest, the most understanding person out there.

I don't wear nice clothes because I feel insecure wearing them. I do, want to buy pretty dresses that I can flaunt in parties, wear heels that makes me super tall, talk about bags and make ups which I do apply, only in my bedroom. I don't talk much because I might offend whoever I'm talking to. Surprisingly, I'm more talkative with my family and people whom are close to me because I know they won't judge me. I am not always confident, I do get nervous whenever I sit for my examinations or when I have a presentation to do. Sometimes, I get the feeling of being used. Sometimes when I try to say things, I'd just be ignored. Then I would just shut the fuck up since no one wants to listen. This is one of the reasons why I rather stay back from school. It is unhealthy, I know, but drowning myself in the cyber world, creating an illusion for myself seems better in many ways. I don't want people to judge me for who they see outside, I don't want to be a tool nor do I want to be invisible.